1.17.2006

a good man...

i might not know a good man when i see one, but i know a good man when one is loving me...

i might not know a good man when we pass on the street, but i know a good man when he holds me in high regard, respects me in the way a gentleman should and shows me a character of honesty, integrity and loyalty…

i know when a good man is walking the talk…

i know when a good man shows me better than he tells me…

i know when a good man holds my hand and leads on the path to joy and laughter…

i know when a good man is stuck to me like glue when times are bad and good…

i know how to recognize the support of a good man when he has my back…when the world is
beating me down and he holds me close and whispers in my ear, “don’t worry, baby - i got you.”

i know when a good man stands beside me and together we present a unified front…

i know when a good man loves me like i want to be loved…like i am the most important thing in his universe and like without me, he is not whole…

i know a good man because a good man is all good…

1.12.2006

sista, can ya' spare a dime?

last night...i had to work my part time gig...i decided to go out into the cnn center atrium to get some dinner for two reasons...no.1...the food inside philips arena is just too dayum expensive...and no 2...there is very little in the way of healthy food to be found at a sports arena...

thusly...(is that a word?)....i am standing in line at the wendy's counter when a dude who is obviously homeless approaches me and doesn't offer a word of greeting or even ask how i'm doing...the words out of his mouth...

"Are you treatin' tonight?"

my response...

"No, I'm not."...from which i turned my back and immediately forgot he existed...

my thoughts...um, excuse me...what in the hell ever...negro...i don't know you...i ain't treating you to a dayum thing...spending my hard earned money on your a ss when i don't even know you...what-the-hell-ever...

later last night...i went back out into the atrium with brooke...one of my co-workers...so that she could get something to eat...

after she's done...we're getting up to leave and another gentleman approaches us...and he doesn't look so obviously homeless as he looks tired and worn down...

he says to brooke...

"Excuse me...are you going to throw that away?"

and of course she is...he goes on to ask...

"Do you mind? Can I have it?"

and of course, she gives it to him...

we take about two steps when i know that i MUST go back...

i went back to his table...and was like...

"Can I buy you something to eat?"

so...we stepped over to the counter at the chinese spot and i bought him a meal with a drink...

it's the best $6.89 that i've spent in a long time...

1.10.2006

221.8

this number has a significance...and in six months...i'll tell you what it is...