"The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself." we all know i gave up on perfect LONG ago...
8.23.2011
Lounging...
This morning when I got on the train, I noticed this guy slumped down in his seat. At first, I thought he was asleep. But he kept opening his eyes and shifting around in his seat. As I began to pay closer attention, I realized that what he was doing was trying to get in a better position to look under the skirt of the woman sitting in front of him.
At first, I said nothing, but then, I saw him take his camera phone out of his pocket and move it down beside his leg. At this point, I got up and went over to the young lady and tucked her skirt under her leg and whispered to her that the guy was trying to look under her skirt.
After I returned to my seat, a gentleman who saw what was going on, got up and sat beside buddy to block his view.
The nerve!!! Nasty buzzard!!!
8.18.2011
8.17.2011
Feelings about Public Assistance
And as one who grew up in an under the income limit household that qualified for benefits, I can promise you that we were not living "high on the hog." The assistance that came in as WIC and government food subsidies (gubment cheese) and food stamps was used to stretch what money my grandmother had.
I didn't own a pair of name brand ANYthing that didn't come from a garage sale or the white lady across town or a pair of shoes that did not come from TG&Y or Payless until I had a job and bought them myself.
In the summertime, I wasn't playing and sleeping in and watching cartoons. My grandmother had us in the fields, picking peas and butter beans and canning in the afternoons and riding up and down dirt roads, picking up aluminum cans.
So, the thought process that EVERY welfare recipient is lazy and good for nothing and doesn't deserve it doesn't necessarily fly with me.
08.17.11 - Morning Run Report
8.16.2011
08.16.11 - Evening Meal
The leftover chicked fried rice from lunch
and a biscuit with syrup.
(Boo on the biscuit. LOL)
08.16.11 - Lunch
Chicken Fried Rice
M. came and took me to lunch at Noodles on Main Street in College Park.
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08.16.11 - Breakfast
Oatmeal
Turkey Bacon - 2 slices
Milk
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8.15.2011
8.14.2011
Echelon 3000
And because we had been told how crowded it would get, we actually got there kinda early. Around 730p.
There was a MySpace talent show going on and Dwele was performing later. There were a couple of standouts in the show, voice-wise and performance wise, but most every performer was rather decent. The Dwele performance was quite forgettable. In fact, I'm only writing about it so that I don't forget it.
I met M.'s cousins - Franklin and Monica(?) for the first time and they were really cool. Tomond, Nicole, Montrez, Dee, Ed and another couple that M. is friends with also joined us out.
All in all, we had BIG FUN!!!
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8.12.2011
I Know Why I Got Fat
I was victim of a combination of things. Around the same time I started working a more demanding job with longer hours, I started dating someone who was damn near BBOD's size. (And sorry, buddy was chunky. He looked okay with it. But he could have lost a few pounds of stomach if nothing else.)
Prior to him, I was dating someone who was very physically active and who had outstanding eating habits.
After that, my activity level dropped to zero. My eating habits went to sht. And since buddy was so big and I'm so tall, the extra pounds that I was putting on were almost un-noticed. In fact, buddy used to celebrate the fact that I was "spreading out." Until one day, I was walking through the grocery store and I thought someone was following me. Turns out, it was my own ass.
At first I made excuses, but then, I realized that I needed to make a change for the better. That was 5 years ago. I have been working out fairly regularly since then. Every now and then, I get off my workout plan, but never for too long.
It's the eating plan that screws me up. After growing up having sweets very infrequently and in a town where there were no fast food restaurants until I was a teenager, I now have a raging sugar addiction and fast food is way too convenient. In my opinion, a fast food restaurant on every corner is just as detrimental to American culture as a liquor on every corner in the hood.
08.12.11 - Run Report
8.11.2011
08.11.11 - MARTA Chronicles
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A Forgotten Memory...
08.11.11 - Run Report
(I love me some Mr. B. He and his wife, Mrs. V are old enough to be our parents. And they basically have just adopted us. It's a really special feeling.)
08.11.11 - Confession
8.10.2011
My Relationship and Outsiders
This is again one of those things where as I learned better and did better.
As I aged, matured, grew into my own person, starting caring less about others' opinions – not saying that some opinions don't have value - stopped trying to analyze my partner's every move, started communicating directly with my partner about our issues, ish in relationships got a heckuva lot easier.
08.10.11 - Run, or actually No Run Report
No run for me this morning. I *had* to go to the grocery store. I was out of fresh fruit and vegetables. Fitness starts from the inside out.
I drove to work yesterday with the full intention of going on the way home. However, when I pulled in to the Kroger parking lot, there were way too many doggone cars in the parking lot. I didn't want to wear out the last nerve that I had left. I just didn't want to deal with all them folk INSIDE the store. I just decided to come back when I knew I could beat the EBT card carrying and baby-hollering crowd.
Since I am on pace to meet my minutes/miles for the week, I do not feel at all bad about not running this morning. Especially since it would have profited me little to get out and run this morning and head to the vending machine this afternoon because I didn't have my apple and banana for the day.
8.09.2011
08.09.11 - Morning Run Report
8.08.2011
08.08.11 - Prayer Warrior
M. to find the position that is exactly what he needs it to be in his job search.
That I make good eating decisions to get to my ideal body image.
That M and I continue to be financially blessed.
I am praying for this nation and its leaders.
I am speaking blessing into the lives of my friends and family.
All blessings I ask in Jesus' name.
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08.08.11 - Run Report
This morning, M. set the run pace. He *drug* me up a couple of hills and although I was hating it the whole time, I am so glad that he did.
8.07.2011
Peanut Butter Bars Recipe - KMS
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8.05.2011
Dinner
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08.05.11 - Run Report
Blog Run Report – Me, TheDude, GiGi – regular route – 41 minutes WALKED!
I asked TheDude if he was going with me and he says, "Naw, I don't think I'ma go this morning." I responded, "Yeah, I know what you mean. I wasn't going either but I just decided just before I asked you the question that I needed to go ahead and get it in."
Four minutes later, he came down the stairs dressed to go.
I love how we motivate each other. It is the best part of having someone really awesome in your life!
#Winning….
8.04.2011
Toilet Lid Closed
I am actually one who prefers that the entire lid be closed. And I've asked M. to close the lid, but er um...yeah...that never happens, in fact, he leaves the seat up.
But whatever, I just close open lids as I pass by them. No worries....
The Paper Towel Bandit
The Help
Inspired by the cast of Jersey Shore
I'm trying to get like the guys on Jersey Shore - not that I watch the show, there's just so much promotion on news magazine shows that I do watch - GTL. Gym-Tan-Laundry. Everyday. That's where I'm trying to get with a few things in my daily routine...well, except for the tanning. I just don't have a cool sounding acronym for mine right now.
Run-Work-Family.
Everyday I want to run.
Everyday I want to do some kind of work.
Everyday I will spend time with my family, my sweetie, most importantly.
08.04.11 - Run Report
Taking it light today and tomorrow – I want to max out for the Atlanta's Finest 5K that my sister and I are running on Saturday morning.
8.03.2011
I'm an abstainer.
08.03.11 - Run/Walk Report
2.25miles – 45 minutes WALKED
M got out with me and is still in recovery from an injury.He stumbled halfway down the stairs and twisted his ankle a couple of days ago….don't laugh…I mean…I did AFTER I knew his neck wasn't broken. And actually, I'm laughing now…I told him it seemed like he was falling for a long, long time…come to find out, he was trying to keep his balance while not spilling the cup of water he had in his hand…he was not successful at either.
8.02.2011
The LOOONNNGGG Engagement...
While our ceremony will be very simple, relatively low cost and will be a bit of a departure from some standard traditions, we have some other plans coming up and some other priorities in place. (Interior painting at the house, some new furniture, a couple of trips planned)
We don't want the wedding to become the sole focus of our lives. We are way more concerned with the marriage than the wedding.
And although it's just one day, there are certain elements of the day that we feel are must haves that we are prepared to budget out and save for. We are pay for everything ourselves, paying for everything cash. And yes, we could have raided some accounts to do it sooner, but we decided it is best to push the date back to be reasonable.
Oh…and last, but certainly not least, this is the Friday before Labor Day. This will be three years to the Friday (but not the date) that we met.
The Date
August 31, 2012
The 31st day of the month of August in the 2012th year of our Lord.
08/31/2012
Title Loans...Seriously?!?
08.01.11 - Run Report
M. didn't go with us this morning. He is still feeling the effects of his trip downstairs yesterday morning.
6:30 came way too quick this morning. But now that the run is over, I FEEL FABULOUS!!!
8.01.2011
Cycles of Life
This friend has expressed some resentment for the fact that I have not been as available on the phone and to hang out. She said something about "knowing how you are - when you meet someone you get all wrapped up in them."
I haven't bothered to point out that TheDude and I have been dating for two years. I saw no value in trying to make her understand that this has been a time of transition and upheaval in my life requiring focus and the need to adjust to a new normal. I didn't try to explain that if I don't make setting a firm foundation for my relationship a priority right now, it will cause problems in my marriage down the line.
I really don't get folks that don't understand that different stages of your life require different things. I no longer have an interest in trying to juggle EVERYthing. I have determined that there are a few things that I want to do well.
She tried to make me feel like my life was out of balance because I don't make time for chitchat on the phone every damn day anymore. Also, my money priorities have changed and I'm not running out for dinner and drinks and movies every weekend anymore.
I am okay with the choices that I am making concerning my life right now.
Too many relationships fail because the parties involved don't know how to make those relationships a priority. I don't have to be all things to all the people in my life.
I don't have the energy for all that.
And initially, I considered that it may be a question of friendship. However, the more that I think on it, I really believe that is a lack of understanding of the concept of "cleaving."
"M. is my best friend now. Not you. And I need you to be okay with that. Seriously."
08.01.11 - Run Report
M was going to run with us this morning, but he fell halfway down the stairs. So, I sent him back to bed because obviously his day was not starting off just right.
He took forever to fall down the stairs, all while trying not to spill the glass of water that was in his hand.
I told him that if there is a next time, he should just give up on the water. LOL