Because I needed a reminder

I originally posted this October 5, 2005. This week, I've needed a reminder.

Sometimes, I forget that I'm fabulous.

Life has a tendency beat your black ass down and make everything good that you know about yourself become null and void. Some days nothing anybody says can get through the wall of depression and self pity that you choose to hide behind. You will question every decision that you ever made. Every mistake, flaw and fault will come back to haunt you with excrutiating detail bringing fresh pain, and you will hurt all over again.

One thing of the many things that I've learned about hurt is that it digs deep and falls onto your soul like fiddle sticks and sticks into your heart like push pins. It is not contained to one little part of your spirit. Instead, it permeates your being and brings you into a place that has no light and is devoid of color.

I truly believe that you should allow yourself the opportunity to fully experience each emotion that springs from the well of your existence. Embracing the good of your character while constantly seeking to hide your imperfections does you an injustice. You should acknowledge each part of your being - good, bad and ugly.

Embrace the good. Give your best shot at reforming the bad. And sometimes, accept the ugly. In addressing all parts of who you are, even on bad days - remember, remember, remember and please do not ever forget to CELEBRATE, CELEBRATE, CELEBRATE YOURSELF!!!!!!!!

Because your conscience gets so buried under all that life throws at you, it's hard to remember.

Trust me, I know.

Because sometimes,

I forget that I'm fabulous.