ok...so i'm in the park yesterday...and i was REALLY feeling the vibe...nice weather...great music...beautiful black ppl EVERYWHERE...i had a ball window shopping, flirting and just hanging out...
it's funny, but whenever i go to centennial park for an event...i run into my former booty buddy...he was looking fine as usual...we spent a few minutes complementing each other, making small talk...then i went on my way...
how shocked was i when my phone rang last night and it was buddy....trying to get an invite to my crib...
it's crazy b/c he and i haven't been together like that in at least two years, if not more....it was flattering...in a way...but...i turned down his offer...not only b/c of nick...but b/c i knew that i wanted more from buddy than just sex...don't get me wrong...it was very good sex, but...i had begun to want more from him than good sex and had come to a point in my life where i wanted to move past that kind of relationship...
and i told him just that...he responded that he could see more happening between us...i ended up telling him that i feel like were just one of those things that probably could happen beautifully because we have the potential to be VERY good together...
he is a successful real estate broker, 30something, never married, no kids, well traveled, outgoing, tall enough, educated, cultured, fine as hell, handsome, great personality, i mean really...a total package...
but b/c of the timing issues that we've always had...it's probably just not meant to be...and because of that, our best move would be to maintain a simple friendship and leave all that physical past in the past...
i also ran into the distinguished older gentlman that i dated briefly a few years back...he was all over me, telling me about this multi-million dollar contract that he has been awarded and that he really has been meaning to call me b/c he's been thinking about me a lot lately...
yeah, right...i mean really...
he and i spent quite a bit of time together over about six months more than four years ago...and i used to tell him that he was more involved in serving the constituents than he was in developing our relationship...which i couldn't be mad...i just needed him to make our relationship a priority and for whatever reason, he couldn't or wouldn't...
a few month back, he and i talked...he has a very different take on things...he told me that he had been totally crazy about me and never knew how i felt about him and didn't think that i was emotionally into him...
oh, well...it seems that w/ both of these guys...we were never on the same page at the same time...sometimes, i was certain that we were not even reading from the same book...
and that okay, because sometimes that's just the way things happen....
can't wait to see what adventures i find the next time i am playing in the park...
